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rindu :'(

2012-03-03T01:13:00.000+08:00

"Air yang dicincang takkan putus."

(Sunway Pyramid, 2010)

It has been a while since last gathering of all five of us. And now, it's time for me to miss this moment.

5 siblings, 3 at KL, one at Egypt and another one at hometown.

Different places may distance our bodies, yet it cannot take my mind far from all of you :')

5 siblings, 3 married, 2 single.

We are heading to build our own family institution, yet it does not mean we forget the one we already have.

Ijat, come back faster. Once u are in Malaysia, and all of us gather, let's take thousands of pictures of all of us.

Somehow, these days, I keep reminiscing my childhood moments, surrounded by my elder brothers and sisters. Being the last, I was the princess of the family. Everyone concerned too much about me back then. Growing up, they know and want me to stand on my own feet. And now, I miss to be the princess again.

Elder brothers and sister,
I may look matured right now. But still, I am your youngest sister, right? :')

Be good and do well, brothers and sisters.

Abang Mat, Kak Tie, Ijat and Konah. Tengs for existing.

ALLAH,
tengs for such precious eternal gifts for me. I am really thankful to have them as my flesh and blood.

Berkasih hingga ke syurga.

Amiin.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Missing A Man Who I Have Never Met.

2012-03-02T22:19:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Again, another talk ^^

Kali ni, ibarat ceramah qadha untuk Maulidur Rasul la. Tajuknya tentang Rasulullah SAW yang disampaikan oleh Imam Muda Hassan yang baru sahaja bergelar pengantin baru. Siap bawa zaujah beliau lagi! ^^

Cerita tentang Rasulullah SAW seringkali saya dengar setiap kali menghadiri mana-mana ceramah. Pasti akan ada terselit kisah tentang baginda. Biasalah, penangan insan paling berpengaruh di dunia ^^

Namun, ALLAH masih sudi memberikan saya satu hikmah baru usai menghadiri ceramah ini. Betapa selama ini, sudah beratus kali saya disogokkan dengan kemuliaan hati seorang utusan yang membawa risalah supaya umatnya tidak sesat. Yang masih mengingati umatnya hingga ke saat ajal menghampir. Masih sudi mengutamakan umatnya. Menyebut nama umatnya di saat ajal hampir tiba. Ya. Saya tahu. Dan saya rasa kalian juga tahu cerita ini, bukan? Malah ada sepotong nasyid yang menukilkan situasi syahdu ini :

"Ketika engkau hampir memejamkan mata,

bibirmu basah menyebut ummati,

Kasih sayangmu tiada tergambar,

Hanya selawat pengikat kasih."

Begitu sekali kasihnya Muhammad bin Abdullah SAW ini kepada kita. Baginda tidak menyebut nama Khadijah, isteri yang paling dicintainya. Baginda tidak menyeru nama Fatimah, puteri yang paling dikasihinya. Baginda tidak memanggil nama Abu Bakar, sahabat yang paling disayangi. Tapi baginda menyebut umatnya, yakni kita, yang tidak pernah baginda jumpa dan kenal!

Melalui satu video yang dipertontonkan, diceritakan bahawa ketika Rasulullah SAW sedang duduk bersama sahabat-sahabat baginda, ada disebutkan bahawa insan yang paling mulia ialah, insan yang tidak pernah berjumpa dengan Nabi SAW, tetapi masih mengingati baginda, yakni kita.

Cuba aplikasikan kemuliaan hati seorang kekasih ALLAH ini dalam kehidupan seharian kita.

Sebagai perempuan normal, tak saya nafikan bahawa kadangkala hati ini terlalai juga dengan keindahan dunia. Pernah juga hati ini terjatuh suka pada insan yang bukan halal. Meminati dari jauh. Stalk FB beliau. Tergedik-gedik hati ini jika insan tersebut lalu di depan mata. Meskipun kewujudan saya tidak beliau sedari, namun bagi saya, mampu melihat beliau sudah cukup indah.

Jahil!

Mengapa saya terlalu mengagungkan insan yang tidak pernah menyedari kewujudan saya, hingga begitu bersungguh-sungguh saya gali maklumat tentang beliau. Nama penuh, asal, tarikh lahir, kos, dan sebagainya. Mengapa saya terlalu mengingati insan yang haram saya ingat? Mengapa saya isi wajah dan nama dia di dalam hati? Kosong benarkah hati?

Di mana saya campakkan sebaris nama yang sepatutnya bukan sahaja ditulis dengan marker permanent di dalam hati, bahkan nama baginda Rasulullah SAW sepatutnya diukir supaya tidak hilang. Jika nama baginda masih di hati, kenapa pintu hati terbuka untuk membenarkan insan haram masuk?!

Di mana saya campakkan ingatan terhadap insan yang tidak pernah mengenali saya, tidak pernah menjumpai saya, tapi kasih sayang baginda terhadapa saya masih mampu saya rasa hingga saat ini, biarpun sudah beribu tahun baginda kembali ke sisi Ilahi?! Mengapa saya isi ruang ingatan itu untuk mengingati insan haram?

Mengapa lagha benar hati dan minda? Mengingat insan yang tidak pernah sedar kewujudan saya. Insan haram pula tu! Mengapa saya sanggup abaikan ingatan saya kepada baginda SAW, demi mengingati insan haram itu? Masya ALLAH!

Sekali lagi ditegaskan, baginda SAW tidak pernah berjumpa kita, tidak pernah mengenali kita, tapi baginda mengingati kita setiap masa. Hingga hujung nyawa. Tapi kita? Di saat lalai dengan indahnya dunia, di saat alpa dengan cantiknya pura-pura, terus kita lesapkan nama baginda. Terlupa. Terleka. Terlepa.

Ayuhlah, sahabat. Berhentilah meminati insan lain, meski dari jauh. Mengapa? Iya, memang tidak salah. Tapi akan menjadi salah, jika meminati insan itu melebihi sepatutnya. Hingga kita mengingati insan itu, melebihi ingatan kita pada insan yang sepatutnya. Bukankah semulia-mulia antara kita adalah orang yang tidak pernah berjumpa baginda, tetapi sentiasa mengingati baginda?

Ucapkanlah salam kepada baginda SAW, setiapkali nama baginda disebut. Sesungguhnya, satu kali anda berselawat ke atas baginda, 10x ALLAH akan berselawat ke atas anda. Dan ulama' membahaskan bahawa ALLAH berselawat ke atas anda adalah dengan mengampunkan dosa anda.

Nah, mahu apa lagi?! Sudahlah menjadi insan terbaik, bahkan dosa pula diampunkan!

Ayuhlah, sentiasa ingat pada baginda SAW :)

"Malu rasanya mengatakan cinta,

Kepada dia kekasih ALLAH,

kerana dia insan mulia,

sedangkan diriku insan biasa...."

Wallahu'alam.

What Makes a Happy Family :)

2012-03-02T21:51:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Pergh. Tajuk tak bleh blahh. Sangat ke-FAMILI-an :)

Alkisah, pada hari Isnin bersamaan dengan 27 Februari baru2 ni, telah diadakan sebuah talk yang dianjurkan oleh MEDCY Society of CFS IIUM. Panel-panelnya ialah Syeikh Abd Qadir Al Jofree dan Puan Nurul Iman Dzulkifly yang membicarakan tentang "What Makes a Happy Family" :)

Maka, atas beberapa sebab, berkunjunglah kami 3 bersaudari ke Lecture Hall A. Majlis start pukul 8.30, tapi 8.15 lagi dah gerak. Demi mendapatkan tempat :) Seperti yang dijangkakan, LHA masih kosong. Justeru, bolehlah saya, Salwaniey dan Sabriena gedik mengada-ngada memilih tempat.

Masa bergerak, dan LHA semakin dipenuhi orang. Majlis dimulakan agak lewat. Kecewa sedikit, kerana benar-benar memakan waktu. MEDCY, mungkin boleh perbaiki isu ni untuk program-program selepas ini.

Jam 9 lebih, panel-panel tiba dan bermulalah sesi ceramah.

Menurut Syeikh Abd Qadir, oleh kerana kami masih lagi di peringkat usia tidak sesuai untuk berkahwin (18-19), maka kurang sesuai jika mahu membicarakan tentang hal pasang-berpasangan. Maka beliau lebih menumpukan kepada soal anak dan ibu bapa. Kak Nurul Iman juga begitu, tidak lokek berkongsi ilmu tentang sejarah keluarganya sendiri.

Kesimpulan daripada ceramah ini, agama adalah asas terpenting kepada terbinanya sesebuah keluarga. Berpeganglah kepada tinggalan Rasulullah SAW yakni Al Quran dan Sunnah, insya ALLAH sempurna hidup 'ala kulli haal :)

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Mawar.

2012-02-11T16:59:00.000+08:00

Mawar nan indah

Mendamaikan segala gundah

Menenangkan segala resah

Menghapuskan segala gelisah.

Mawar nan merah

Mempunyai pelbagai faedah

Melembutkan hati yang amarah

Menyingkirkan gelap menaikkan cerah

Mawar nan ceria

Jadilah kamu yang setia

Menghapus duka memberi cinta

Menyusur jalan kepada Yang Esa

Bukankah mawar itu perhiasan dunia?

Dan bukankah seindah-indah perhiasan dunia itu ialah wanita solehah?

Ayuh,

jadi mawar!

Yang tetap bersinar meskipun gelap.

Yang tetap menyerlap dalam malap.

Yang hebat.

Yang kuat.

Yang sabar.

Yang tabah.

Yang indah...

Warga asing.

2012-02-11T16:39:00.002+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Since this story has been published by the owners of the house themselves on their belogs, so I take that as chance for me to share this story here as well, but in a larger scope.

Alkisah, pada cuti hujung minggu lepas yang bersambung dengan Maulidur Rasul dan Thaipusam, kakak saya dan suami beliau telah pulang ke kampung suami beliau di Perak. Tiba-tiba, pada hari Isnin, mereka mendapat panggilan daripada jiran yang meminta izin untuk masuk ke rumah mereka setelah jiran tersebut mendapat pintu rumah kakak saya terbuka. Setelah diizinkan, jiran terbabit masuk dan mendapati rumah kakak saya telah dimasuki pencuri. Beberapa barang berharga hilang.

Naluri kakak saya mengatakan bahawa pencuri itu merupakan warga Indonesia. Ini berdasarkan beberapa bukti, antaranya :

1) Wang rupiah baki daripada percutiannya ke Indonesia baru-baru ini lesap.
2)Pisang salai yang dibeli di Indonesia turut lesap.
3)Sebelum kejadian ini, kakak saya ada menelefon tukang paip untuk membaiki paip di rumahnya, dan berkemungkinan tukang paip Indonesia itulah dalangnya. Namun, oleh kerana tiada bukti yang jelas, maka malaun itu tidak boleh disabitkan dengan kesalahan ini.

Akhirnya, kakak saya dan suami beliau hanya mampu redha, kerana semua rezeki datangNya dari ALLAH. ALLAH nak tarik balik rezeki yang Dia beri pada kakak saya dan abang ipar, mungkin sebagai kifarah dosa. Malah ayah kuat menyokong kakak, dengan mengatakan rezeki ALLAH masih ada untuk kakak saya, selagi kakak saya hidup. Maka, jangan risau. Rezeki itu milikNya, maka terserah pada Dia bila mahu memberi dan menarik balik.

Ini suasana bilik tamu yang sering saya jadikan kamar peraduan apabila pulang berhujung minggu di sini. Sepah! Kot iya pun nak sepah, kemaslah balik! Ingat senang ke nak kemas?!

***

Ayuh, saya bawa anda kepada satu kisah lain pula, tapi masih berkisar tentang warga asing.

Sepanjang pengajian di IIUM, saya temui ramai warga asing daripada pelbagai golongan. Tua atau muda, profesional atau amatur, semua saya jumpai.

Kalau di kafe-kafe, tukang masak dan tukang cuci pastinya, tidak lain tidak bukan merupakan warga Indonesia, Thailand dan Filipina. Cakap Melayu pun pelat-pelat. Mereka ini golongan amatur.

Sementara itu, adalah menjadi kebiasaan bagi pelajar IIUM untuk mempunyai pensyarah yang bukan daripada kalangan warga tempatan. Biasanya, warga kulit hitam yang datangnya dari Sudan dan Arab Saudi (kebanyakannya Sudan).

Semester pertama, ustaz Bahasa Arab saya, Ustaz Hadi, aslnya dari Sudan, namun sudah lama menetap di Malaysia. Beliau sangat baik. Meski pada usia hampir 60, masih sabar mengajar kami ilmu BA.

Setiap kali kelas, beliau tidak lupa menyelitkan amanat dan nasihat kepada kami. Namun, di sebalik kata-kata azimat beliau, yang paling saya ingati ialah ;

"Antum kullukum kama baniin wa banaati."

(Anda semua seperti anak-anak saya)

Ohh, sungguh touching. Dan tidak tahu mengapa, setiap kali saya lihat beliau, saya dapat rasa kewujudan Ayahtuk saya yang dicintai. Beliau mungkin tidak setua Ayahtuk saya pada angka usianya, namun pada wajahnya, ya. Wajah orang yang bekerja keras dari zaman muda hingga ke tua.

Semester ketiga ini, saya diajar oleh ustaz lain pula. Kali ini, salah seorang daripada ustaz Bahasa Arab saya ialah Ustaz Dhau'. Beliau juga seorang yang sangat baik terhadap anak didiknya.

Oleh kerana hanya mempunyai 2 jam seminggu, ustaz menawarkan kami kelas tambahan. Belum sempat kami memberi respons, ustaz segera menambah :

"Don't worry about payment. These classes are free. I don't mind to come and teach you at night, because I live nearby. Anytime you need class, just give me a call."

Kami menyambut tawaran ustaz dengan hati terbuka. Alhamdulillah.

Sudahlah kelas percuma tanpa bayaran, ustaz siap bagi handout lagi sebagai rujukan kepada kami. Menurut ustaz :

"The book you are doing now explains you in hard way. So, the papers that I gave you will help you. These are the easier method that I summarise from the book."

Ustaz tidak mahu kami bersusah payah untuk faham perkara yang mudah!

Dan, dalam satu sesi perbualan dengan ustaz, antara ayat ustaz yang menyentuh hati saya :

"I can't sleep at night if there's any of my students does not understand what I'm teaching. I can't sleep if any of my students fails in examinations. All of you are my daughters and sons. I worry if you cannot do well in exams."

Sweet, kan?

Bermula saya mengenali Ustaz Dhau' yang rajin dan baik hati ni, saya cuba asuh hati saya untuk menerima warga asing dengan hati terbuka. Kami hanya berbeza kewarganegaraan, sedangkan hakikatnya kami bertuhankan ALLAH yang satu, dan memijak di bumiNya.

Namun, baru sahaja hati ini mahu suci, kejadian pecah rumah terjadi kepada kakak saya. Memanglah suspek belum ditangkap dan dikenalpasti kewarganegaraannya, namun petunjuk banyak menghala ke arah 'mereka'. Tambahan pula, selama ini, warga Malaysia tampaknya begitu berbaik hati dengan warga Indonesia yang tanpa segan melemparkan pelbagai gelaran kepada Malaysia, antaranya 'MalaySIAL' dan 'MALINGsia'.

Sedari dulu, Malaysia dan Indonesia tidak pernah betul-betul mempunyai hubungan yang baik. Bermula dengan konfrontasi, diikuti timbul isu-isu lain. Mereka di Indonesia sibuk menuding jari pada majikan Malaysia yang kononnya kejam, sering mendera amah-amah yang datangnya dari Indonesia. Tapi apakah mereka peduli tentang rakyat Indonesia yang bersepah di Malaysia, yang mengganggu-gugat keamanan Malaysia dengan melakukan pelbagai jenayah, yang menutup peluang pekerjaan kepada warga tempatan?

Tapi kita, warga Malaysia? Walaupun dituduh pencuri (maling - pencuri), kita masih tercongok di hadapan kaca televisyen, menonton sinetron Indonesia yang beratus-ratus episod, yang memaparkan plot cerita sama (hilang anak, cari mak kandung, kemalangan hilang ingatan). Walaupun warga Malaysia di Indonesia pernah diancam buluh runcing, amah dan buruh warga Indonesia di Malaysia masih tetap digaji, diberi penempatan dan keperluan asas yang cukup. Hospital kerajaan yang menyediakan khidmat berkualiti pada harga yang murah turut dibanjiri warga asing yang mahukan rawatan.

Iyaaa, bukan semuanya jahat! Tapi, bukankah peribahasa ada menyebut, kerana nila setitik, rosak susu sebelanga?

Saya mulanya hormat juga pada warga Indonesia yang berhijrah ke Malaysia demi mencari rezeki. Bukan senang mahu meninggalkan kampung halaman dan keluarga. Namun, oleh kerana wujudnya spesies yang tidak menghargai kebaikan yang dihulurkan dan memanipulasikan jasa itu, maka hormat saya semakin berkurang.

Apa lagi yang mereka mahu? Ruang? Pekerjaan? Wang? Makanan? Pakaian? Telefon bimbit? Semuanya sudah ada! Bersyukurlah dengan apa yang ada! Kita semua menumpang di bumi Tuhan, dan anda menumpang di negara kami, maka pandai-pandailah bawa diri!

Sacara amnya, saya tidak menyalahkan warga Indonesia sahaja. Warganegara lain pun sama sahaja, hatta Malaysia. Tak semua baik, tak semua jahat. Tapi bila golongan pendatang asing yang datang ke Malaysia ini membuat onar, rasa geram bertambah-tambah. Orang sebegini, tidak layak diberikan peluang untuk hidup di negara orang, jika perbuatannya menyusahkan manusia sekeliling semata-mata!

Buat sang maling dari Indonesia,
semoga kamu dikurniakan hidayah oleh ALLAH untuk kembali ke jalan yang benar. Insaflah. Bertaubatlah.

Dear warga asing berhati mulia,
kekalkan niat suci anda. Semoga ALLAH merahmati kalian :)

Dear kakak dan abang ipar,
insya ALLAH, DIA akan bagi yang lebih baik. Sabarlah.

Dear Malaysians,
Jangan terlalu baik. Adakalanya, kita perlu bertegas. Ingatlah, buat baik berpada-pada, buat jahat jangan sekali-kali.

Semoga kita semua sentiasa dalam lindunganNya. Amiin.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Pura-pura.

2012-02-05T14:37:00.001+08:00

*AMARAN : Entri ini hanyalah sebuah entri luahan perasaan yang saya sifatkan sebagai peribadi. Feel free to read if you please, and feel free to leave if dispelase. Thanks! :) *

Bismillahirrahamanirrahim.

Secara jujurnya, saya benci pada kepura-puraan dan orang yang berpura-pura. I usually do not deal with such people. Such pretending people. Saya lebih sukakan orang yang jujur. Hatta dalam sesebuah perhubungan pun, bagi saya, jujur yang paling utama. Jika sudah tidak sayang, katakan dengan JUJUR, sudah tidak sayang. Tak perlu berPURA-PURA masih sayang, sedangkan hakikatnya hati sudah melayang pada yang lain.

Saya ingin mengaitkan kisah pura-pura ini secara tidak langsung dengan kisah Monday Couple dalam rancangan hiburan Running Man terbitan Korea Selatan. I'm one of its big fan, and I admire all the episodes and the casts of Running Man.

Dalam RM ni, ada satu pasangan, which are Gary dan Ji Hyo yang digelar Monday Couple, sebab mereka sangat lovable. In each episode, memang akan ada scene Monday Couple. Kenapa minat? Sebab Gary sangat sweet terhadap Ji Hyo. And watching their sweet scenes, enough to make me shouting with envy towards Ji Hyo who always gets special treatment from Gary.

Sweet kan, Gary ?

Dan Ji Hyo pun adakalanya menunjukkan juga persetujuan beliau untuk menjadi pasangan kepada Gary untuk Monday Couple ini.

Mereka menjadi pasangan yang paling comel dan manis, sehingga menjadi antara faktor yang menyebabkan rating Running Man naik mencacak.

Namun, awal Februari lalu, gempar page facebook Running Man apabila Song Ji Hyo didedahkan sedang bercinta dengan CEO syarikat yang menaunginya sendiri. Malah, berita yang mempunyai bukti bergambar itu telah dipastikan oleh wakil syarikat terbabit yang mengesahkan sememangnya Ji Hyo dan CEOnya sedang bercinta. Berita tersebut boleh dibaca di sini .

Bila mengetahui hal ini, saya terkejut. Kenapa? Kerana bila saya ingatkan balik babak-babak manis antara Ji Hyo dan Gary dalam Running Man, saya rasa tertipu. Benar, mereka hanya mewujudkan Monday Couple, yakni pasangan ini bukanlah terjadi dengan semulajadi. Sekadar gimik untuk menaikkan rating program. Tapi, kenapa harus ada babak-babak yang comel antara Gary dan JH, jika JH langsung tiada perasaan pada Gary?

Ji Hyo menyertai syarikat itu sekitar Julai tahun lalu, dan bercinta sekitar Disember. Apabila diperhatikan, logik juga. Ini kerana tiada lagi babak-babak manis antara Gary dan Ji Hyo selepas episod Christmas Special. Staf Running Man sendiri mengakui bahawa mereka tahu mengenai Ji Hyo dan pasangannya selepas berita tentang mereka keluar di akhbar, tetapi staf terbabit menyatakan bahawa ahli Running Man yang lain mungkin sudah tahu terlebih awal kerana ahli-ahli Running Man sangat rapat sesama mereka.

Apabila peminat mengetahui bahawa Ji Hyo kini sudah mempunyai teman lelaki, ramai yang meluahkan ketidakpuasan hati. Dan ramai yang menunggu reaksi Monday Couple's boyfriend, Gary.

Ini reaksi beliau :

Maka, benarlah seperti yang dijangkakan bahawa mereka masing-masing saling tidak mempunyai perasaan terhadap satu sama lain, namun hanya berPURA-PURA saling suka sama suka, mewujudkan momen-momen romantis untuk membeli jiwa penonton agar terus menonton Running Man.

Pokok pangkalnya, pura-pura.

Koleksi gambar Gary dan Ji Hyo di atas ialah gambar printscreen beberapa aksi mereka yang saya rasa comel, indah dan manis. Namun setelah mengetahui bahawa semua itu PURA-PURA dan lakonan semata-mata, maka saya tidak lagi berminat untuk membuat sebarang printscreen lagi. Kenapa? Kerana semua itu palsu!

Memberi harapan kepada penonton, memberi kegembiraan kepada penonton dan akhirnya memberi kekecewaan? Benar, mereka hanya berlakon. Tapi lakonan yang mencambahkan harapan dan akan diakhiri dengan kehancuran, begitukah? *emo*

Benar, mereka masing-masing punyai hak untuk membuat pilihan sendiri kerana ini membabitkan hal peribadi sendiri.Jaga hak orang, orang jaga hak kita (",)

Saya ambil insiden ini dengan cara yang positif. Mungkin ini jalan ALLAH buatkan untuk saya, agar lebih senang saya tidak selalu melekat dengan Running Man. Benar, minat saya pada Running Man makin pudar. Ini juga memberikan gambaran kepada saya bahawa kejujuran adalah yang terbaik dalam segenap hal.

Selain itu juga, ini membuatkan saya sedar bahawa cinta manusia tidak akan ke mana. Cinta ALLAH juga yang akan setia. Dan dengan ALLAH, anda tidak akan mampu berpura-pura, kerana Dia tahu segalanya.

Semoga kalian tidak hidup dalam kepura-puraan.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Fadhilat Selawat Ke Atas Junjungan Mulia, Muhammad SAW.

2012-02-04T23:52:00.000+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Antara fadhilat-fadhilatnya ialah :

1. “Barang siapa yang berselawat kepadaku pada waktu pagi sepuluh kali dan pada waktu petang sepuluh kali, ia akan memperolehi syafaatku pada hari kiamat. ” (Riwayat Tabrani).

2. “Barang siapa berselawat kepadaku di sisi kuburku maka aku mendengarnya, barang siapa berselawat kepadaku dari jauh maka, selawat itu diserahkan oleh seorang malaikat yang menyampaikan kepadaku dan ia dicukupi urusan keduniaan dan keakhiratan dan aku sebagai saksi dan pembela baginya.” (Riwayat Al Baihaqi dan Al Khatib).

3. “Barang siapa berselawat kepadaku satu kali, maka Allah berselawat kepadanya sepuluh kali selawat dan Allah menghapuskan sepuluh kesalahan (dosa) dan mengangkat sepuluh darjat kepadanya.” (Riwayat Ahmad, Nasai dan Al Hakim).

4. Dari Ubai bin Ka ‘ab: “Aku bertanya, wahai Rasulullah! Sesungguhnya aku memperbanyakkan selawat, maka berapakah aku jadikan untukmu dari selawatku? Nabi bersabda: Apa yang kamu kehendaki. la berkata: kataku: “Seperempat.” Sabda Nabi: “Apa yang kamu sukai dan jika kamu tambah maka itu yang lebih baik bagi kamu.” Kataku: “Apakah sepertiga? ” Sabda Nabi: “Apa yang kamu sukai, jika kamu tambah itulah yang lebih baik bagi kamu.” la bertanya: “Apakah aku jadikan selawatku buatmu semuanya.” Nabi bersabda: “Jika demikian maka dicukupilah cita-citamu dan diampuni dosamu.” (Riwayat Ahmad, Tirmizi dan Al Hakam).

5.”Berselawatlah kamu kepadaku, kerana selawat itu menjadi zakat (penghening jiwa pembersih dosa) bagimu.” (Riwayat Ibnu Murdawaih).

6. “Barang siapa berselawat kepadaku dalam sehari seratus kali, maka Allah mendatangkan baginya seratus hajat, tujuh puluh untuk akhirat dan tigapuluh untuk dunianya. ” (Riwayat Ibnu Majar dan Jabir).

7. “Barang siapa berselawat kepadaku dalam sehari seribu kali, maka ia tidak akan mati sehingga ia digembirakan dengan syurga.” (Riwayat Abus Syaikh dari Anas).

8.”Orang yang bakhil ialah yang bila disebut namaku kepadanya, lalu ia tidak mahu berselawat kepadaku.” (Riwayat Tirmizi).

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Di dalam kitab Ibnu Farhun Al Qurthubi dinyatakan bahawa membaca selawat kepada nabi mengandungi sepuluh faedah dan mendatangkan kemuliaan, iaitu:

Memperolehi selawat dari Allah.
Memperolehi syafaat dari Nabi Muhammad.
Mendapat pimpinan dari malaikat yang baik-baik.
Menghapuskan dosa.
Mendapat pertolongan
Tercapai keperluan hidup.
Mempunyai pembeza dengan orang munafik dan kafir.
Memperolehi nur zahir dan batin.
Mendapat keselamatan dari azab neraka, membolehkan memasuki syurga.
Memperolehi ucap selamat dari Allah.

Menurut para ulama yang didasarkan keterangan-keterangan hadis, membaca selawat kepada Nabi Muhammad akan memperolehi 30 faedah yang amat besar. Di antaranya ialah memperolehi limpah rahmat dari Allah, ditulis sepuluh kebajikan, dihapuskan sepuluh kesalahan, diangkat sepuluh darjat, memperolehi kesempurnaan iman, memperolehi syafaat Nabi Muhammad dan lain-lain lagi.

sumber : Berita Harian Online

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Ayuhlah, kita berselawat!

Salam Maulidur Rasul.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Karnival Karangkraf 2012

2012-02-04T23:41:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Wehee! Alhamdulillah, berjaya jugak sampai ke Karnival Karangkraf yang selama ini hanya mampu dibaca di ruangan iklan majalah-majalah terbitan Karangkraf. Thanks to Kak Tie dan Abg Naim.

I met few novelists there :)

*terima kasih kepada Kak Aleeya kerana masih ingat muka budak sememeh ini :) *

Gambar atas sekali tu, Damya Hanna, penulis Bicara Hati yang drama adaptasinya sedang ditayangkan di Astro Prima.

Gambar yang kedua pula ialah gambar bersama Puan Anis Ayuni, penulis Gemersik Kalbu yang drama adaptasinya sedang ditayangkan di Slot Akasia di TV3.

Tak lupa juga,

Datin Muja Mujahadah, seorang VIP terkenal di Seksyen 4, Bangi :D

Ini pula artis, tapi dah dapat gelaran Dato' sebab banyak berkhidmat kepada negara *kononnya* . :D

Sekian, itu sahaja perkongsian :)

Berita baik untuk emak : Iya, adik tak beli novel pun. Orang ramai sangat, tak berbaloi nak beratur kalau nak beli novel 1-2 buah je. Kena borong 5-6 buah baru okay! :D

Semoga penulis-penulis yang bernaung di bawah Karangkraf akan sentiasa diberikan ilham dan idea untuk menghasilkan bahan bacaan yang bermutu buat kita semua, amiin :)

Wallahu'alam.

It was my daddy's birthday, but I was the one who received the gift :)

2012-02-04T23:21:00.000+08:00

28th Jan 2012. Thanks to my daddy for this :

*Canon EOS 1100D*

A dream came true. And it is no longer a dream, it is a spirit booster. I took this thing as a gift from my parents (although the Jan 22nd was my dad's bday), and as a mark that I will study harder in order to achieve better results. Amiin, insya ALLAH.

Thank you, mummy daddy. May ALLAH bless :)

*gambar je Nikon. We actually chose Canon. weee*

Alhamdulillah.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Shout @ Fibox :)

2012-02-04T21:55:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Sekian lama membiarkan shoutbox di belog ini tidak berfungsi, saya lantas mengikut saranan Afifah Ubaidillah untuk membuat kotak chat yang baru di belog, yakni FiBox.

Mula2, bila tempek di belog, saya sendiri tak reti nak 'menjeritkan' diri di kotak chat tersebut. Lepas mencuba beberapa kali, barulah berjaya. Teheee. Jakun :D

Mula-mula, letak nama dan website anda di ruangan yang disediakan. Kemudian, tekan enter. Akan keluar satu kotak ruangan anda menulis mesej anda, sebelum tekan Go untuk memuatnaikkan mesej anda ke dalam kotak chat FiBox yang baru ini :)

Silalah menjerit ye! :)

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Sentence of The Day (2) : Maryam dah kahwin ke?

2012-01-26T16:09:00.002+08:00

A : Maaf, nak tanya sikit, boleh?

Saya : Bolehhh :) Apa dia?

A : Er, Maryam dah kahwin ke?

Saya : Kenapa tanya macam tu?

A : Sebab Maryam selalu pakai cincin emas tu..

Saya : Oh, cincin tu...

***

Tergelak saya dibuatnya bila ada classmate baru tanya macam ni.

Ehem, Miss A, agak-agak, apa jawapannya ya? :D

Cincin emas? Emasss la sangattt :D

Wallahu'alam.

p/s : Muka MK dah memang macam muka isteri orang ke? Auwww ;)

(Review) : Cinta Perisa Dia

2012-01-24T12:59:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Ini merupakan novel keenam Kak Lynn Dayana (LD) yang saya baca. Ye, saya baca semua novel beliau dan merupakan seorang penyokong tegar LD. *bangga lettew :D

Cerita berkisarkan Hadif Imran dan Ayumi. Ayumi. Nama Jepun, muka Jawa. Kenapa Ayumi? Bukan Ayuni? Hanya LD ada jawapannya. Cumanya, nilai klise dapat dielakkan dengan wujudnya nama Ayumi ni. Selalu dengar Ayuni kan... Jadi, bila wujudnya nama Ayumi, uniknya seorang heroin itu telah pun ditonjolkan.

Secara ringkasnya, Hadif Imran seorang penyanyi terkenal namun belum berkahwin walaupun sudah berusia 35 tahun, terpaksa mengikut rentak bondanya yang bertindak mencari menantu dengan mewujudkan satu rancangan realiti. Ayumi merupakan salah seorang peserta dan hanya sampai ke tahap Top Three sahaja, sebelum tersingkir. Kalau Ayumi menang, kemudian Hadif kahwin dengan Ayumi, takde thrill lah, kan? Pemenangnya adalah orang lain, tapi tetap 'terkahwin' dengan Ayumi. Bagaimana? Uiks, bacalah sendiri! :D

Hadif Imran, sama seperti hero-hero LD yang lain. Mempunya nilai kemanisan dalam diri yang sangat tinggi, hingga boleh membunuh! Heheh :D Cuma, babak percintaan antara Ayumi dan Hadif berlangsung agak lambat apabila hanya di suku terakhir cerita, kisah cinta manis mereka bermula. Sebelum tu, LD mengupas dengan agak panjang cerita tentang Hadif Imran, bondanya dan program realiti cari menantu itu. Selain kisah cinta Hadif-Ayumi, turut diselitkan kisah Diana-Fiqri. Diana merupakan sepupu Hadif, manakala Fiqri pula merupakan kawan baik Hadif. Lovestory depa dua orang ni pun xkurang comelnya :D

Cuma, saya terkeliru sikit dengan info di halaman 141, yang mana bonda Hadif meminta tujuh saksi apabila Hadif dituduh mempunyai hubungan songsang dengan Fiqri. Setahu sayalah, saksi zina merupakan empat orang lelaki Muslim yang adil, bukannya 7 orang sebagaimana yang dinyatakan. Atau, adakah hukum berubah apabila penzinanya kedua-dua lelaki, bukan lelaki dan perempuan? Timbul persoalan di situ. *Sila rujuk pakar atau buat rujukan untuk jawapan sohih. I'm working on it.

Last but not least, bukan novel Lynn Dayana namanya kalau takde unsur-unsur saspens. Akhir setiap tajuk dan permulaan tajuk seterusnya tidak disambung secara jelas. Justeru, apa yang berlaku di akhir tajuk 1, tidak akan diceritakan secara langsung di tajuk 2. Tapi akan dijelaskan menggunakan teknik imbas kembali atau intermonolog. Ini memang akan menimbulkan rasa ingin tahu pembaca ke atas apa yang terjadi pada babak berikutnya.

LD jugak tidak lupa menyisipkan adegan ganas dalam novel beliau kali ini. Cuma skala ganasnya tidaklah sehebat ganas dalam novel-novel sebelumnya seperti Tarikh Luput Cinta dan Cinta Edisi Terhad. Ganas di sini saya maksudkan ialah ada adegan aksi :D *Harus maklum bahawa Maryam Kamal merupakan seorang yang lembut. Maka, babak yang 'kasar sikit' akan segera diklasifikasikan sebagai ganas, walaupun ianya sebenarnya takdela GANAS mana pun :D

Adegan ganas yang dimaksudkan ialah apabila Ayumi diculik oleh adiknya sendiri dengan kerjasama Rashidi, insan yang cintanya ditolak Ayumi. Penculikan ini menyebabkan tiga nyawa terkorban dan menyaksikan penyatuan kembali Ayumi dan ayahnya.

Saya juga ingin memuji keberanian LD yang berani menggunakan nama yang terkenal dalam Cinta Perasa Dia ini. Contohnya Fara Fauzana, Faizal Ismail, Kiran, Suraya, Che Selebriti Norzailina Nordin, tak lupa juga TV9, Celcom dan Astro. Biasanya, penulis hanya akan menggunakan gelaran yang umum seperti DJ radio, syarikat telekomunikasi, dan syarikat penyiaran televisyen. Dan saya rasa keberanian ini harus diberikan pujian. Tak ramai yang berani kata,

"Atau mungkin seperti siaran berbayar Astro ketika hujan. Total blank." (halaman 154)

Secara keseluruhannya, saya percaya LD mampu menghasilkan novel yang lebih hebat pada masa hadapan. Jalan cerita yang tidak klise, harus diberikan pujian. Namun secara peribadinya, saya rasa naskhah LD kali ini agak biasa-biasa saja. Mungkin LD nak simpan bakatnya yang masih tidak digunakan untuk menghasilkan novel yang lebih hits. Atau mungkin fokus LD terpecah kepada beberapa bahagian. Untuk makluman, LD kini juga sudah dan sedang menghasilkan novel remaja. Sila ke FB beliau untuk info lanjut.

But still, kepada anda yang mencari bahan bacaan ringan yang kelakar, tapi sarat dengan unsur kasih sayang sama rata yang ditunjukkan Bonda kepada anak kandungnya (Hadif) dan juga anak-anak angkatnya di Rumah Amal Murni, juga ada unsur sedih, saspens dan manis, Cinta Perisa Dia is a good choice :)

Kepada Kak LD (andai sudi membaca di belog merapu ni :D) , semoga terus dikurniakan ilham dan idea untuk menghasilkan karya yang lebih baik dan hebat pada masa hadapan. Jangan persiakan bakat dan kekuatan yang ada. You have both. Bakat dan kekuatan. Maka, jangan sia-siakan. Menulislah untuk ummah! Semoga sentiasa diberikan ruang dan situasi yang sesuai untuk menulis. All the best! :)

Maaf andai ada info dan kenyataan yang tidak sesuai atau dirasakan tidak tepat. Jujurnya, ini hanya pandangan peribadi. Semoga ini tidak mempengaruhi sebarang fikiran.

Selamat membaca.

Wallahu'alam!

p/s : Kak Lynn, si Ayumi tu ijazah dalam bidang apa? Undang-undang dari UIA, ke? :D

My hero is turning 60 !

2012-01-22T00:20:00.000+08:00

U were 41 when I was borned. And I am 19 when you are 60.

For these 19 years of being the father of mine, thank you. Thank you for being existed.

Ya ALLAH,
terima kasih atas penganugerahan insan yang kupanggil ayah ini kepadaku.
Semoga dia sentiasa berada dalam lindunganMu, amiin.

Selamat hari ulangtahun, ayah :)

Safe journey, loves :)

2012-01-22T00:14:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

She is a person who rarely says no to whatever I ask her to do and to go. Logically, we share same ideas and opinions. But sometimes, she criticised my taste, so do I towards hers. She is the oldest, and I am the youngest, but still we share lots of things together. Maybe I am too matured, or maybe she is the one who childish. Childish as in, she can understand a mind of a kid like me. Huh, kid la sangat aku ni kannn. haha :D

I always envy her. She is the one who always get praised by parents. She is creative, she is very wise at choosing and shopping, she is very smart in Maths. And yes, I envy her very much. But then I accept the fact that each of us has our own advantages. Those are her advantages, and I have my own. Nothing to be jealous of. It is better for us to combine our advantages for the sake of our parents, right? :)

I know she endured herself much lately. I was the one who always challenge her anger. I did so many things that sometimes were not acceptable by mind, but she rarely showed her anger. She kept it herself, rather than scolding me all the times. Sometimes I did not satisfy with her, but when I thought again about what we had gone through together, I realized that I could not let my anger to her.

That's the magic of blood relation, where you can't find in any relations in the world. This is the only one. Blood relation. Because eventhough everything happens, still the connection is on. You cannot cut it out. It is fated.

She taught me many things, and lately she indirectly teaches me to be stronger and tougher. It is not compulsary, but a necessary.

Sister, thanks for everything. Especially for gaining a lot of patience to handle the naught me, as well as to bring smiles and laughs on Mak and Ayah's faces. It's so heaven to see they happy.

Kak Tie, Abang Naim, Mak dan Ayah,
Safe journey there.
enjoy the moments :)

May ALLAH bless.

Dah tak boleh nak 'berkelah' ...

2012-01-21T23:50:00.000+08:00

Picnik will be closed this April 19. Dah tak boleh nak 'berkelah'lah, nampaknya ye :D

Sentence of The Day (1) : Hidayah milik ALLAH.

2012-01-21T23:41:00.000+08:00

"Suami mak cik dulu ulama' terkenal yang telah mengIslamkan ribuan orang."

Iye, mak cik? Habis kenapa mak cik sendiri belum tutup aurat dengan sempurna? Ohh lupa. Hidayah tu milik ALLAH, kan? =.='

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Sentence of The Day (SOTD) merupakan label baru di belog ini. Akan memuatkan entri yang diadaptasi dan diedit daripada sumbersekeliling yang mencuit hati.

Tidak bermaksud untuk menyinggung mana-mana pihak dan tidak berniat untuk mengaitkan siapa-siapa, yang hidup atau yang telah meninggal dunia. Be positive, dude! Take this from bright side ya! Hope you guys may find the hidden message.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

It's not good, but actually the best for me.

2012-01-21T00:10:00.001+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Late at night last night, my friend told me something. Something that was very bad, until if I was given choices, I will choose to not know it.

It is a matter related to heart. A typical heart of mine. A very soft and weak. Lifeless. Restless. And sometimes, useless.

But then, when I compared my grief with my friends', I found that mine was the lighest. I recalled the moment when I met Syarifah Aimi Syed Mohamed. She looked damn cool, eventhough she just lost her father a few days ago. While me? A sadness over a small thing? huh =.='

Somehow, the news that my friend told me did leave a deep effect in my heart. But, my tears seemed unwilling to burst. It was extremely not a good news for me, but I did not feel more than a disappointment. A tiny tower of hope collapsed, maybe. So as the people who used to bear the pain of collapsing tower of hope, I managed to control the feeling well. I mean, I was not hurted too much.

The news was not a good one for me, but it actually the best. Perhaps it may enclose me with my ALLAH. Amiin.

Btw, what was the news? Do I need to mention it specifically? Maybe not :) But YOU, please read this poem wholeheartedly.

Ku bebaskan engkau,

Dengan penuh rela.

Dengan hati luka,

Kita terpisah jua.

Ku hanya berdua,

Agar kau bahagia,

Bersama si dia,

Insan yang kau suka.

Semoga kau berjaya,

Menggapai cita-cita,

Yang menantimu setia,

Di hadapan sana.

You,
I was stupid to take you into my heart. But I don't want to remain as idiot, to keep you in there. And now, I am ready, mentally and physically to let you go. So please, have your way out of my heart.

Me? heh (",)

Wallau'alam, wassalam.

Do not stay in comfort zone, instead, always create it.

2012-01-09T19:59:00.001+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Here I am, back to CFS in PJ. Back to room 901 with the same rommates as previous 1st semester. Everything seems similar, but still, there are many things different.

When I open my room's door, I will see the door of 902. The people of 902 of last 1st semester were my seniors, and one of them was my roommate in my 2nd semester. But now, on this 3rd sem, she's no longer here. She has finished her foundation and now currently waiting for the 30th Jan to come, so that she can enrol to IIUM Gombak to further her degree. I miss her, quite badly. Kak Krun was my guardian angel of previous sem, remember? :'(

My 901 is nearby to toilet, but my 106 was quite far. Due to my routine who used to walk spontaneously across two others' rooms before I reached my 106 on previous 2nd sem, I nearly went into someone's room last night as I passed my 901, headed to 906. Ohh. Seriously I was confused by the situation.

I don't know what I fear more, either I fear of being in level 9 again (rather than my previous precious level 1) or I fear of not being with my roomies on 2nd sem.

I have my buddies around me. Wani, Syaera as well as Brien. We were siblings before, and I really hope that we may remain as siblings in this 3rd sem. Seriously, I need time for myself to get used with them again, and this 901 as well.

Another story is about my classmates on this new sem. On previous two semesters, I was comfortable enough with my classmates. We met at first sem, and eventually we adapted ourselves very well. But in this sem, a few classmates and I will join another group which is majoritily not from our previous classmates.

Somehow, I feel burdened because of my appearance. Frankly talking, I was happy to have Artika, Marinah, Nadiah, Farah and few others who attended the class by wearing 'tudung labuh' like I did. But in this new class, I am not sure if there's anybody of this group wears the same tudung as mine. I know it's my problem for having such inferior feeling, but I could not help myself to not feel so. It will be an awkward situation if I cannot do well in classes, and all the people will automatically look down towards people who wear tudung labuh just because of me.

But then, when I reminisce about the news of my senior of MMP - Ukhti Fatimah Mukhtar who is unhesitately still wearing tudung labuh eventhough she is in Nottingham, UK , I then get a new strength to stay positive. Hope that this will last long.

Both stories above are about comfort zone. I was comfortable with the situation and surrounding of 106 and its people, but somehow I never can to have such situation again. I was happy with my classmates of previous semesters, but I myself am sure that it is impossible for me to have same classmates for every semester onwards.

That's why I'm teaching myself to not stay in comfort zone, but always create the comfort zones. So, whenever and wherever I am, I will be comfortable. Insya ALLAH.

Girls, please pray the best for me. I'm looking forward for a better me. I come here to study, not to stay pleasurely. For sure, there must be something that will give me other feelings, other than happiness.

Everybody who is normal will gonna to have problems in life. It's normal.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

A people who has twin and her introduction sentences :D

2012-01-07T20:11:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

"Do recognise me, because you might see me somewhere but sometimes that's not me, well i duplicated when i was in my mom's womb :) I have twin sister,she's my wombmate, my sibling, my friend, my soulmate and probably share the same DNA."

They're great sentences in introducting yourself who have twin, Liah. And I now envy you for having twin, because you already have a mate since in Che Uda's womb, and yet I still alone :'(

Jangan gaduh2 ye, Milah Liah. Keep the harmonious noble relation all the time. All the best in SPM !

***

Meet my cousin, Kamaliah Kazin who is my latest 122th follower of this belog. She can be visitied at kamaliahkazim.blogspot.com , but she has not post any entry yet. Please be patient :D

Welcome to the blogging world, new blogger! :)
Be a good writer, don't be a quite useless one like me :D

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Sem 3, aku datang!

2012-01-06T17:36:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

5.35 pm. Kurang 2 jam sahaja lagi untuk meninggalkan bumi P.Mas. Sekejap lagi, akan menaiki tren ke Kajang, transit di rumah Kak Tie dulu, sebelum dihantar ke CFS untuk meneruskan jihad di semester ketiga.

Semoga semester ini sebaik, atau kalau boleh, lebih baik berbanding semester yang lalu. Usaha tangga kejayaan! Maryam boleh, insya ALLAH!

I promise to do better and try harder in becoming sem. Sem 3, aku datangggg! :D

Dudes and dudettes, please pray for me as well. Pray for my best, dunia and akhirat. Thank you, may ALLAH bless :)

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Hadiah 2012.

2012-01-06T17:32:00.001+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

assalamualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah. Segala puji bagi Allah, Tuhan semesta alam yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

Pagi tadi, Kak Krun mesej bagitau result sem 2 akan keluar petang ni, jam 5 petang. Dah bajet akan jammed, kami berpakat taknak bukak portal lagi. As in, taknak tahu lagi result macam mana.

Tapi tadi, lepas solat Asar, tergerak hati nak cuba dulu. Mula-mula memang tak nak, sebab tak berani nak berdepan dengan kenyataan yang serasanya lebih cenderung ke arah kegagalan. Nanti tak tenang hati pulak nak naik tren malam ni, jika results tidak seperti yang diimpikan.

Saya kata pada diri sendiri, cuba sekali saya. Kalau trafik internet jammed, cuba di rumah Kak Tie pula esok pagi. Maka, dengan dup dap dup dap jantung yang kencang, saya beranikan diri ke portal CFS, masukkan ID dan password. Maka, inilah hasilnya.

Sungguh, saya tahu ini biasa-biasa saja! Tapi bagi saya, ini luar biasa kerana carry mark saya tidaklah seberapa! Saya score B+ saja, meskipun saya tahu gred sebegitu akan menjejaskan CGPA saya. Tapi hanya pada tahap itu saya berani letakkan sasaran. Mendapat A- sudah menjadi bonus besar bagi saya! Alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah, alhamdulillah! :)

No no no. Don't congratulate me. Congratulate my parents, sebab saya rasa ALLAH kurniakan ini pada saya kerana Dia mahu ibu bapa saya gembira. Kerana bila mereka gembira, automatik dunia akan menjadi indah buat saya.

Ini mungkin biasa-biasa sahaja, tapi inilah hadiah 2012 saya yang pertama buat mak dan ayah. Insya ALLAH, hadiah sebegini akan menyusul lagi. Ayah, senarai dekan ye? Insya ALLAH. Mak, DSLR ye? Heheh :)

Walaupun results ni okey, tapi amalan menonton Korea tetap harus dibendung! Jangan biarkan ianya terus menular dan membiak sehingga menjadi tabiat dalam diri!! Hwaiting, Maryam! :)

Ya ALLAH,
jadikanlah aku hambaMu yang seimbang,
dunia dan akhirat.
Jangan biarkan aku terlalu mencintai dunia,
hingga aku alpa tentang akhiratku.
Jangan hanyutkan aku dalam gelombang akhirat,
hingga aku lupa takhlifatku di duniaMu.
Seimbangkanlah aku seadanya,
wahai Tuhan yang Maha Pemurah lagi Maha Penyayang.

Sahabat, entri ini bukanlah entri mahu menunjuk-nunjuk. Tidak sama sekali! Ianya sekadar sebuah entri untuk berkongsi kegembiraan dengan anda, dan mahu menyedarkan anda bahawa rezeki ALLAH ada di mana-mana! Yakinlah dengan DIA! ALLAHUAKBAR!

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

p/s : Looking forward for 3rd Sem. It must be better, okay! :)

p/p/s : Sekalung terima kasih untuk Kak Asmaa' Sazali tercinta <3

It has been 3 years! :)

2012-01-01T15:48:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

3 years!

Officially, yes.

It has been 3 years since I created this calendar.

But the truth is,

my belog's age is more than this.

But somehow,

let say that this belog is 3 years.

If it is a human,

it will be a year older than Ikmal.

It can walk and talk.

And I am very lucky it can't,

because it might walk away and leave me as it cannot stand to be with me anymore.

Because it may voice out its unsatisfaction towards me.

So, I'm very lucky this belog can't walk, neither talk.

Please just remain as a lovely belog, dear.

I am sorry.

As the owner of this belog,

I always write something useless here.

Which will never benefit the readers.

Which maybe will cause the readers to waste their time here.

But sincerely from my heart,

for my 120 followers and currently 151 FB likers,

tengs for dropping by.

Tengs for the comments and tengs for the support.

Please pray for me,

to get good and fresh idea to be shared with you guys,

in order to make my writings useful to you.

May ALLAH bless.

Dearest Belog,

happy 3rd birthday!

You ~ DAEBAK!

Wallahu'alam,

wassalam.

Love?

2012-01-01T15:41:00.000+08:00

Is it love? It burdens when with it, but feels missing without it - Kang Gary.

No, it is not love. It is normal. Most people are so. We will only appreciate something when it is gone. We always prefer to waste the time by ignoring it, until it disappears, then we will realize, how important that thing to us.

If it is a thing, at least it is okay for not having feelings.

But if it is human, that people will hurt. Either that people is loved or not by you, it does not matter. But appreciating only after you lost that people, that's frustrating. That will hurt both parties.

Therefore, please. Appreciate everything in front of your eyes, as they might disappear, only in a blink of eye.

2011 dalam kenangan.

2012-01-01T15:30:00.001+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Asslamualaikum wbt.

1 Januari 2012.

Another new year comes.

2011 left me with many memoriable things.

January 2011 : I enjoyed my holiday after finishing SPM on December 2010.

February 2011 : Struggled hard to finish my driving course in AMSA.

March 2011 : Here came the hard moments. SPM results.

April & May 2011 : These two moths did torture me well. While my buddies were preparing themselves to further study, yet I was still crying at home for failing to see my name in any application, neither matriks, maktab nor IPTA.

June 2011 : The sun finally appeared. Only in few minutes, ALLAH cured the pain in my heart. A gift from heaven came to me :)

July, August and Sept 2011 : ALLAH met me up with new people. The more the behaviors, the more the experience.

Oct 2011 : Great effort resulted to happiness :)

Nov 2011 : Short sem of 2011, met new friends :)

Dec 2011 : The year ended.

***

January

It was the month of holiday and relax :D After giving all out for SPM and said goodbye to secondary school, I travelled to KL. Stayed there for quite a moment, mostly at Kak Tie's house. Seriously, I learnt many things about my family. Lot of things were revealed automatically, and there I learnt how to be a better member to my family.

February

I joined driving class in order to get my driving license. I was doing it in Bangi. To be specific, Akademi Memandu Shah Alam (AMSA) of Bangi branch. I met some new friends there named Maryam Afifah, Syakila and Amirah. But till now, only Syakila is the only one who still keeps in touch with me. I have no idea about others :D

March

The scariest month of 2011. The SPM results was announced. It was a hard moment for me because I had to confront my parents and saw their frustrated towards me of not getting excellent results. I was so sorry for myself for not getting straight A's, but I felt more sorry towards my parents for dissappointing them.

I also managed to get my P driving license during this month. Alhamdulillah :) *nak riak sikit : sekali test je tau, terus dapat LULUS. Terima kasih Encik JPJ :))))

April

During these months, the results of applications to further study to SPM candidates 2010 were announced. Firstly, matriculation. I failed. But I didn't concern too much, as I myself had no intention to go there, a place where all science people live :D

Next, UPU results. My first choice was Tamhidi Syariah Undang-undang of Universiti Sains Islam Malaysia. I was quite confident that I may go there, unfortunately the results was negative. My name was not listed in any university. The tower of hope began to collapse.

I told myself to stay positive. I built another tower of hope to maktab perguruan. I attended the interview, and it went well. Instead of asking me confidential question, the interviewers just asked me simple question such as what was my hobby, what was the book that I was currently reading and few more. Plus, my family and friends managed to convince me that the chance for me to break the wall to maktab was very clear and bright.

And no, there were wrong. Yes, the tower of hope collapsed again. This was the worst moment of 2011 that I will remember always. My failure. No, not failure. But failures. I failed so many times, until I almost gave up to try again. After knowing the maktab results that started with 'Nama anda tiada dalam senarai permohonan yang berjaya', I cried right away in front of my daddy. And I will as well remember his face. His worried face. Sorry dad, I made you frustrated and worried at the same time.

May

It was 30th of May, I still remember vividly. It was Friday, about afternoon. There were three envelopes in my hand. Appeal letters which were adressed to USIM Nilai, CFS IIUM PJ as well as Ministry of High Education Putrajaya. My dad insisted to appeal face to face with those parties.

Our first destination was CFS IIUM as it was the nearest. We were brought by a relative to meet an officer from A&R Department and within minutes, he accepted the appeal and asked me to register to CFS on the next Monday which was in another two days.

ALLAH showered me with love after he rained me with difficulties. On that moment, I realized very much that everything was in ALLAH's hand. If He wanted me to enter CFS IIUM, He will put me there, in any ways.

June

It was registration month! :) I registered myself as student of Foundation of Laws on 2nd June altogether with first intake students. With two days preparation, I could see the hard effort my parents did in order to ensure that my basic needs were enough as we prepared in such of rushing and hurry.

July, August and September.

New place, new environment and new people. I met so many people that I'd never thought to meet. I made new friends, as well as maybe there were some people who dislike me because of certain things. I am not being negative, but truly, there was, because I maybe was not up to their standards to be a friend.

I learned to be more independent. Need to plan my budget on myself. Need to manage time on myself. Need to motivate myself as there were no parents around to scold and advice me.

October

Results of 1st sem appeared and I managed to create smiles on many faces, satistying with my results. Alhamdulillah :)

And on 27th Oct, please welcome my new nephew :) Muhammad Irham Hakeem, say hi to your older Hakeems :D

November

Registration of 2nd sem. Met new friends and roomies. And seriously dragged into Korea wave :D

DANGER DANGER DANGER!

Somehow, I found that it was hard to maintain the good results. Maybe it was really the results itself, or maybe it was me who was more playful than previous sem.

December

The year ended and was closed calmly. Nothing more happen. The last month seemed to be the closing of a plot.

***

Alhamdulillah, a year passed.
Alhamdulillah, for still give me the chance to be where and what am I today.
Alhamdulillah for the love.
Alhamdulillah for the life.
Alhamdulillah for the laugh.
Alhamdulillah for the lesson.

Alhamdulillah for everything, ya ALLAH.

Guys, always believe in ALLAH. He will never put you in much difficulties, more than easiness. If your hard time comes, stay tough and take it as a lesson from ALLAH. He is teaching you to become stronger. Trust me, I knew that.

Happy new year 2012. May this year provides something better than past years.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Selamat Tinggal 106 :')

2012-01-01T13:11:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

It has been more than a week I left KC 106, but still I remember every moments that we shared together, roomies.

For past 2nd semester, as not all students were taking it, so I needed to find new roomies because my previous roomies of 901 were not taking this short sem. Therefore, I found Siti Khairunnisa', or I used to call her Sitiku. Then the senior from front door of 902 offered me herself with another buddy to stay altogether with us. That made all of us the stayer of KC 106 of 2nd semester.

Sitiku was and is my classmate. In fact, she will gonna to be my classmate for the 3rd sem as well. So, need not to story much about her, as she does not need more introduction. Enough to say that she is someone that I know and it was pretty good situation for me to live in a same room with my classmate. We could discuss about our lesson together, we may ask each other if there was any assignment adn homework that should be finished, we could get ready and off to the class together. It was nice and thanks to Sitiku for being a good company for me.

But seriously, I would like to convey my apologize for you for not being a good roommate as well as classmate. I was not competitive enough for you and my craziness towards Korean might be affected you to not study as well. Chongmal biande for that. It was unintentional and I personally think that we need our own inner determination if we are going to stay together again. I hope I was not too influental towards you.

The girl at the right is my sunbae. She was my neighbour of front door when we stayed at level 9 during our first sem in CFS. But then on second semester, we were fated to stay together. This 2nd sem was her last sem in CFS, before pursuing to degree in Gombak.

Seriously, she is a good senior. A senior that I can rely on all the time. I could not deny that she was among the people that introduced me closer to Korean wave, but I could not deny as well that she was also the one among the people that took very good care of me along my short sem. She was really my guardian and I felt safe whenever I was with her. So, a giant thanks to Kak Krun for being so protective and reliable. I really appreciate our moments together.

She introduced me to Running Man, which is currently my favourite variety show that manage to burst my laughter when I really need to laugh. When I watch RM, I can't help myself from remembering Kak Krun. She was too nice. As the new watcher, I asked and commented on too many things in RM, and she commented and answered me all the time kindly.

We kept fighting about RM, and that was actually enclosured she and I. I kept saying that her HaHa was short, fat, stubborn as well as hot tempered. While she criticised my Kim Jong Kook as a very hot tempered man. But then, we laughed as we know both of us were just joking.

But, regarding to how many times I have laughed because of RM that was introduced by her, I really should thank her very much. RM has been a therapy to me, whenever I think I need laugh. And Kak Krun, please accept my gratitude as well for being a vey good, nice, kind and daebak sunbae for me. Chincha, this sunbae has become my unnie. Chongmal kamsamhamnida, unnie! :')

Meet Siti Nursyahirah Tharmizi. She is my new friend. A genius girl sponsored by MARA. She was my sunbae by semester, as she enrolled to CFS by using SPM trial results. She registered into CFS since January, which on that time, I was still enjoying the holidays after finishing SPM.

Regarding to this girl, I was the first person who she used 'kau-aku' , and she went to night market (or Syahirah called that thing as lambak) for the first time with me. And I think there were more first time things that occured between us, but I just manage to memorize two :D

Btw, a good friend, she is, indeed. She adviced me a lot about life. Her determination somehow impressed me. She woke up daily on 5.30am, heading to toilet to take bath. At 11 pm, she will off to sleep. A discipline girl, yes she was. She was a positive person who never thought something bad. She cared very much about her relation with her friends. She scared enough to hurt people's heart. She feared enough to lose connection with ALLAH. She concerned both, hablum minan nas, as well as hablum minallah. And that was how she amazed me.

She inspired me as well. She watched Korea also, but still her CGPA was daebak! She also enjoyed RM, but still her GPA was awesome! She followed both dramas and songs of Korea, but still she managed to perform well in her study. And those things led me to think, if she can stay as best student eventhough she admired Korea to death, why can't I?

Therefore,

kau,
terima kasih kerana ada di sisi aku.
terima kasih kerana jadi roommate aku.
terima kasih kerana nasihatkan aku.
terima kasih kerana ingatkan aku.
terima kasih kerana bangunkan aku.
terima kasih kerana dengar masalah aku.
terima kasih kerana lihat aku menangis.
terima kasih kerana selalu mengerti aku.

dan terima kasih banyak-banyak,
kerana sentiasa ada untuk aku.

***

That is a little story from KC 106. When I flashback our moments there, I will automatically smile. I got new nickname, which is Jemah, created by Syahirah. She said that it was too hard for her to call me MJ, so instead of that, she preferred Jemah. Therefore, I called her Jemah as well, because for me Syahirah was too long and if I shorten it into Syaera, I might misunderstand her as my Syaera (Norsyahiirah Musiman) which was my previous roomie of 901.

With akak, we used to chat by using word 'nyah', as akak acted as that kind of people for her Law Soc presentation. Nyahhh youuu! :D

And Sitiku, she was my roomie, classmate, yet she was my rival as well. But again, sorry for not being a good competitor. We should compete better. A healthy competition.

Girls, tengs for the sweet 7 weeks that we had gone through together. It was awesome to have you girls as roomies. And huge tengs for the moments that we shared together. Sorry for all wrongdoings of mine. Indeed, I made many mistakes and I'm really sorry for that. And please halal all the things that I took from u girls, intentionally or not :D

Chongmal biande, chingu :)

Ke mana pun kita lepas ni, dengan siapa pun roomate kita lepas ni, just remember this sentence. Sekali kita berkawan, selamanya tetap kawan. Arasso?

May ALLAH bless you girls.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

p/s : Jemah, sorry for stealing your pic from FB. I just realised that none of your picture is in my Acer. omo omo !

penyakit?

2012-01-01T01:40:00.000+08:00

assalamualaikum wbt.

Still in a shock. My friend which I skyped with, asked me this :

"Maryam, u get involed with Korea? Who dragged u into it? What happened to Maryam Kamal?"

*something like those above la. It's not 100% correct ya.*

Then I keep asking myself same questions.

I couldn't agree more, that once, I hate Korea the most. And I kept wondering why people admire Korea. But now, when I am in their shoes, I can't say anything, because I treasure the feel myself.

So people, just please don't look down to people like me. I challenge you, just try to be in our shoes, then it will be the best explanation to you, why we admire Korea.

But somehow, no matter how many advantages from watching Korea that I can list, still, the disadvantages seem more. Perhaps I need to cure myself from thise disease faster, before the virus breed and stay in Maryam Kamal forever. Nauzubillah.

Disease? Yes. I categorized watching Korea as a disease. It makes me addicted, which I should not be. I realized as well that peope around me are trying to tell me about it. Thanks to u people, I realize that. So please move to the next step, which is helping me out of this disease.

Please, do help me curing it. I want to, I just don't have the strength to do so. It is not a sin watching these things, but it will be if I pay more attention to them, rather than other prior things.

I may be able to not watch Korean dramas, but about Running Man, I need to reconsider. By any chance, RM always brings me to laughter, eventhough at the same time the laugh burst, the tears will cascade on my cheek as well. In simpler words, by watching RM, I may laugh and cry at the mean time. Isn't that good? :D

A simple review about RM. Why I love them? Because they are friends, and family as well. They have no blood relation, but still, their relations are much better than people who have blood relation each other. They fight, but they love. They cheat, but they honest.

Kalaulah Malaysia ada rancangan sekualiti ini....

Okay. Look. Let take this thing simpler. It is not wrong to involve in Korean things, but don't go over the boundary. Be moderate.

Arasso?

That's all. Btw, tengs to that skype fella for waking me up. Kamsamhamnida :) May ALLAH bless. Amiin.

Wallahu'alam.

Alhamdulillah. Nomu nomu kamsamhamnida :)

2011-12-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Huwarghh. What a long day! :)

*AMARAN :: Entry ni berkaitan dengan diri sendiri MK ye. Jangan marah jika tiada unsur pengajaran atau bahan berguna dalam post kali ini. Harap maklum :) *

Pagi tadi, rushing ke rumah mek, 'punch card' a.k.a melapor diri sebab petang semalam tiba lewat di rumah, jadi tak sempat berkunjung ke rumah mek semalam.

Balik tu, dalam pukul 10 smthg, tergotong-royong kemas halaman rumah dengan Konah. Beliau menyental lantai beranda, saya menyapu timbunan dedaun kering yang gugur dari pohon rambutan. Kemudian cabut rumput, kumpul sampah dan Konah end all these dengan jemur kain di ampaian.

Lama tak lama, kami tergotong-royong sampai nak masuk Zuhur. Kira sebagai tanda maaf pada ayah dan mak la sebab pagi tadi terbangun lambat sebab semalam tertido lambat :D

Lepas Zuhur rileks kejap tengok RM. Omo omo, aktiviti yang dah jadi rutin. Mak ada jugak tegur, dia cakap jangan jadikan benda ni tabiat. Omo omma, sudah agak terlambat. Tapi takpe, masih boleh dibaiki, insya ALLAH. Cuma saya agak yakin mak akan menyabitkan kegiatan menonton Korea ni jika CGPA saya untuk Sem 2 ini turun.

Namun ibu, ketahuilah bahawa anakmu ini tidak pernah mencintai Komputer! Aku terpaksa ibu, terpaksa! Cintaku tetap setia pada Laws! *okay, enough of drama. Ingat mak akan baca belog entah hape2 neh? And even if she will, will she understand this scene as well? Tak dapat tidak, memang (mungkin) rutin ni menjejaskan sedikit sebanyak prestasi saya :'(

Mak balik dalam pukul 4. Rasa bertenaga kejap lepas tengok Kancil ajaib tu. Terus tetiba banyak tempat yang saya nak tuju muncul dalam kepala. Ke klinik gigi, ke Pantai Timur, ke rumah che, ke kedai optometris, ke bank dan tak lupa, pasar malam! Akhirnya dapat juga melepaskan gian memandu manual. Omo omo.. skil makin tumpul. Itulah, asyik sangat drive BJW yang diculik daripada Kak Nori :D

Balik around 7, ready untuk maghrib. Then had dinner sambil tengok Glory Jane yang agak membosankan tu. Kemudian, muncullah orang yang dinantikan malam ini. Seorang saudara belah mak yang memiliki kedai komputer, datang ke rumah untuk merawat Acer Biru hikmat saya ni secara personal. Ye lah, semalam saya minta dia datang untuk buat medical check-up pada Acer saya yang acapkali hang dan jam. *yer yer saya tahu. Mesti anda nak cakap sebab banyak sangat cerita Korea kann. I know , I know :D

Malangnya, tak hang la pulak makhluk-makhluk dalam Acer ni. Mozilla yang selama ini selalu sangat mencabar kewibawaan saya sebagai seorang manusia yang sabar, berfungsi dengan elok pulak malam ni. Microsoft Word yang selama ini tak pernah gagal buat saya nak gigit skrin Acer ni bila keluar frasa 'Not Responsing' dia tu, berjalan lancar je malam ni. Aigooooooo!

Dear Acer 4750Z,
Whenever you have problem afterwards,
Don't tell me I didn't warn you to behave.
Don't tell me I didn't care about you.
Don't tell me I never scan virus, trojan horses and worm in you.
Don't tell me I abandon you.
Arasso?

Er, tajuk entri ni sebagai tanda kesyukuran pada Ilahi kerana memberikan kesihatan kepada Acer saya yang setelah discan oleh BitDefender, beliau sihat tanpa sebarang virus. Alhamdulillah. Nomu nomu kamsamhamnida Ya ALLAH :)

Oh ya.
Petang tadi ke rumah che. Entah macam mana boleh terkeluar kisah saat-saat terakhir gemulah Ayahtuk Haji Harun di sisi che. Macam-macam che bercerita tentang alamat-alamat yang ALLAH kurniakan sebelum Dia menjemput Ayahtuk pergi. Ayahtuk pergi terlalu cepat. Hanya abang sulung saya yang punyai gambar di dukungannya. Kami yang lain tak pernah jumpa Ayahtuk. Tapi saya tahu, beliau insan hebat. Terlalu hebat hingga saya rasa jika beliau masih hidup, beliau akan merasa malu punyai cucu seperti saya. Saya dapat rasakan, kami generasi muda sudah jauh daripada tradisi yang diamalkan generasi terdahulu.

Ayahtuk, adik minta maaf. Chongmal biane. *Ayahtuk faham Korea x? :D Ni lagi satu sebab gemulah Ayahtuk bersedih. Cucu beliau yang sekolah agama pun terjatuh dalam pengaruh hiburan yang dalam. Masya ALLAH.

Kemudian, saya sedar sesuatu. Saya cucu Tuan Haji Harun, bekas Imam Masjid Pasir Mas. Beliau insan cemerlang. Maka seharusnya saya cuba untuk meneruskan legasi kecemerlangan beliau, kan? Tiba-tiba rasa bersemangat mahu jadi insan cemerlang juga! Yang pasti, insan cemerlang tak menonton Korea secara over, kan? :P *sindiran untuk diri sendiri.

Okay, cukuplah untuk kali ini. Rasa puas hati dapat keluarkan semua yang tersimpan di dalam. Alhamdulillah. Terima kasih atas peluang ini, ya ALLAH :)

Acer Biru,
sila sihat-sihat sentiasa ye.
Microsoft Words, jangan biarkan saya curang pada OpenOffice lama-lama ye.
Mozilla Firefox, izinkan saya guna awak juga ya selain Internet Explorer.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Ada berani?

2011-12-25T14:58:00.002+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Ni merupakan petikan daripada laman FB saya.

Doa ini saya baca berkali-kali. Kali pertama baca, sungguh saya tersentuh dengan keteguhan dan kekukuhan iman seorang pencinta ALLAH.

Tapi bila baca banyak-banyak kali, saya rasa saya temui sesuatu yang boleh kita sama-sama aplikasikan dalam kehidupan seharian kita.

Memetik kembali doa hikmat Rabi'atul Adawiyah (RA) :

"Tuhanku, kalau aku beribadat kerana syurgamu, haramkan aku memasukinya dan jika aku beribadat kerana takutkan nerakamu, humbankan aku ke dalamnya." - Doa Rabi'atul Adawiyyah.

Dalam erti kata lain, RA mahu ALLAH menerima ibadah beliau kerana beliau beribadah benar-benar kerana ALLAH, bukan kerana mahukan ganjaran, meskipun memang ganjaran itulah yang ALLAH janjikan pada hamba-hambaNya yang taat pada suruhanNya.

Aplikasikan dalam kehidupan kita.

Langkah pertama, ada berani doa macam dia? I mean, secara generalnya, kita berdoa macam RA, yakni berdoa pada ALLAH supaya tidak masukkan kita ke syurga jika kita beribadah kerana syurga, dan masukkan kita ke neraka jika kita beribadah kerana takutkan nerakaNya.

Jujur, saya tak berani! Kerana bila baca doa ini, barulah saya sedar bahawa kebanyakan amalan yang saya lakukan selama ini, kerana mahukan ganjaranNya. Jauh bertentangan dengan RA yang menyembah ALLAH hanya kerana ALLAH, bukan ganjaranNya.

Astaghfirullah.

Langkah kedua, tukar sedikit situasinya. Yakni, situasi kita seharian. Sebagai contoh, situasi saya sebagai seorang pelajar.

Benarkah selama ini saya belajar semata-mata mahu mengejar ilmuNya, bukan kerana mahu gred yang bagus? Juga bukan kerana mahu menjaga CGPA?

Saya terfikir soal ini selepas mendapat markah mid sem dan carry mark untuk semester kedua ini. Dan bila saya soal diri sendiri, saya buntu. Saya niatkan di hati mahu belajar keranaNya, namun hati saya masih gusar memikirkan CGPA yang akan jatuh jika gred saya di semester dua kurang bagus. Aduh! Saya belum benar-benar ikhlas belajar kerana ALLAH, nampaknya.

Justeru, konklusinya di sini, saya mengaku, saya tidak berani berdoa seperti RA. Ya, saya penakut.

Anda bagaimana? Ada berani?

Tepuk dada, tanya iman.
Benarkah segala yang kita lakukan di bumiNya ini, benar-benar ikhlas dan jujur keranaNya?

Semoga kita menjadi lebih baik pada masa mendatang, amin.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Takkan...

2011-12-17T01:04:00.000+08:00

Takkan indah kerlipan bintang, tanpa ditemani gelap malam.
Takkan meriah warna pelangi, tanpa bumi ditimpa tangis langit.
Takkan gemilang sinar mentari, tanpa bulan mengundur diri.
Takkan damai hembusan bayu, tanpa angin sudi bertiup.
Takkan wujud rerama jelita, tanpa ulat keluar kepompong.

Hukum alam,
Takkan wujud kesenangan, tanpa ada kesusahan....

Bahkan,
makin sulit kesusahan,
makin mekar kesenangan.

...

2011-12-17T00:59:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Just a babbling update. Feel free to close the tab, as this post maybe not bring any benefits at all to you.

Today is Saturday. 6 days to go to meet final exam this becoming Friday, then say bubbye to CFS. Will be on holiday for two weeks, then again, on the next Jan 9, need to register to Sem 3. Whoa. 3rd semester. It has been 2 sems, and I am still the old me. The old lazy me. Urgh. I know I need to study hard in order to ensure good thing to my CGPA, but currently I tell to myself to study ultimately because ALLAH, not because grade, neither GPA, nor CGPA. But because ALLAH. Niat is a very important thing in any single matter we do, right? :)

I just traced some new things that added my hatred to myself. Despite of being more hardworking after quite bad results of mid sem, I become lazier. Then, all of a sudden, I currently spend money on many useless things. Need not to mention what are they, but everything that I buy these days are not in my list of necessary things. They are desired stuffs and I should be okay if I could not have them. But instead of spending money wisely, I use shopping as a reason and excuse to exclude myself from tense. Yeah, women used to shop during their tension moments, right? So, maybe that situation occur on me as well... Perhaps. *rolling eyes sambil kata ; perghhh, alasan lagi!

Next topic will be Korea. I know I posted about Selamat Tinggal Korea back days.. But I did mention as well to decrease my interest to Korea, not delete it at all, rightio? So, in order to confirm that this petty girl Maryam Jamilah can laugh everyday, it has been a must for me to watch at least one episode of Running Man daily. This sounds crazy, I knew that. But if this is the only way for me to put aside the burden on me for a while, why not? I'm not saying that Quran verses or prayers cannot help me and my burden, but my fitrah as a human expected entertainment. Ohh people, don't be judgemental. Don't label me as a Kpop maniac just because I can find peace with RM, not with religious things. Be on standard! How come I can laugh while reading Quran or performing prayers? So, RM will be the best medium. You people may say the more the laughter, the more the heart become blacker. But do you know that sometimes tears come altogether with laughter?

People. Judgemental people in specific. Pure, noble and innocent persons, have no right at all to degrade, neither to look down to guilty people. They are guilty because ALLAH has not revealed His precious thing to Him. If one find day ALLAH gifts those guilty people something valueable called 'hidayah', perhaps those bad people will turn into better people, perhaps much better than the earlier pure, noble and innocent ones. So, be aware! Don't think you are great just because you are pious. Be considerate to other people that are not as lucky as you. I'm not saying that pious people are judgemental, but sometimes, YES THEY ARE. And sometimes, THEY ARE TOO MUCH. IF da'wah billisan can't work, da'wah bilhal will be okay, right? Argh, don't tell me you don't know these, piousie! It's welcomed if you would like to correct our mistakes, but make sure in proper ways, okay!

And please, don't emphasize others mistakes, till you forget to fix yourself. Be cautious. I'M WARNING YOU, by the way!

Slowly before I go, just wanna to mention that I am currently at Seri Kembangan. My parents just arrived from Kelantan and they are resting. Thanks to ALLAH for giving me the chance to gain easy rewards. By just looking to their faces, I will get rewards, will not me? Yes, I will. Just by looking to their faces. Alhamdulillah again :)))

I know, there will be nobody who read this. At least, until this paragraph. The readers might stop at the first sentence, or the first paragraph, the most. So, let me just end this murmuring here. I don't expect people to read, neither to understand, as you people won't. But I write these thingy down because I want to. No, I need to. Let just say that these things explode straightfully from my heart, therefore this entry becomes so boring. This is the relection of my heart. Padat, banyak dan membebankan. But by any chance, I am grateful to ALLAH. He shows me His Almighty. He makes me think, how come a small organ call 'qalbi' can feel various types of feelings? Sad, frustrated, envious, unsatisfied, happy, depressed and many more! He is just... GREAT! Right? :)

Thanks for dropping by. May ALLAH bless.

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Rindu yang berombak :)

2011-12-03T21:00:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Semalam, Jumaat bersamaan dengan 2 Dec, saya telah memberanikan diri untuk keluar tengok wayang bersama teman yang baru saya kenali lebih kurang sebulan.

Kami pergi sama-sama dari UIA, tengok wayang sebelum saya balik ke Bangi menggunakan komuter dan dia kembali ke UIA dengan bas.

Review? Hueh. I bukan CikEpal youuuu, nak bagi review hebat2 ! Cuma boleh katakan, skrip yang skema sentiasa mengganggu kami ketika menonton wayang. Gelak tak tahan bila tiba part skema. Lakonan AA dengan MK (Maya Karin ye, bukan Maryam Kamal :D ) biasa-biasa je. Cuma LS nampak lain. Ye lah, biasanya LS pegang watak baik dan lembut je. Sekali, dapat watak kelabu, nampak sisi lain seorang LS. BP maintain comel.

Saya kecik hati dengan teman saya ni, sebab dia kata BP macam Bangla. Eh hello! BP lagi charming drp AA, oke! Tapi oleh sebab dia belanja saya popcorn dan beverage, maka forgive la :D

Novel dia maybe lagi best kut. And saya tak paham kenapa watak Izzah boleh bagi pada someone yg Pan-Asian look, sedangkan Izzah gadis kampung pure. Entahlah, maybe mak atau ayah Izzah keturunan orang Inggeris yang pernah menjajah tanah Melayu kut. haha :D

Satu part yang saya rasa tak penting dan tak patut ada ialah part MK mandikan MAK CIK Delimawati yang kononnya berpenyakit barah. Kenapa harus terjemahkan part tu dalam keadaan MAK CIK Delima sedang mandi berkemban? Tak boleh ke buat babak tu masa MAK CIK tengah terbaring atau disuap makan? Kenapa harus berkemban? Kesian MAK CIK tu, janganlah lambakkan dosa kering kat dia. haihhh =.='

Kak Jijah Mahzan pun agak gorgeous dalam babak pertama beliau muncul. Tepi kolam renang, youuu. Dan selaku anak yang SOLEH, boleh pulak Hariz kata, "Mom, you look gorgeous." . Tidak dapat tidak, saya dan teman saya terpaksa gelak. LUCU SANGATTTT. Macam tu kau kata gorgeous?

Astaghfirullah. Tak baiknyaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Sorry for any harsh words. It just... I just can't accept the women who at the same age, or nearly the age as my mom, wearing something which make them look horror, instead of gorgeous that they wished. AUNTIES, at your age, that kinda of fashions are not yours anymore. I am not saying that those fashions will be good if the youngster wear them, but it just.. When you are in those fashions, it looks double horror.

Dalam kata mudah, fashion berkemban dalam TV tu tak elok, dan bila MAK CIK pakai, tak elok tu jadi doubled. Maaf ye.

Semoga diberikan hidayah drpNya. Maaf sangat2 ye.

Ha, kan dah cakap, I am not good in reviewing. Kan dah menyentuh sensitiviti sesetengah pihak. Biande.

Cuma sinematografi filem ni boleh dipuji la. Nice views are everywhere in this film. Congrates to those who are involved in recording and capturing nice scenes :)

Kami jadikan aktiviti menonton wayang ni untuk mengeratkan silaturrahim dan mengukuhkan kasih sayang antara kami. Alhamdulillah, thanks to ALLAH for the chance that He gave us to enjoy :)

Yang, nanti kita layan Azura pulakkk. Mao? :)

Layanlah gambar-gambar intim kami ni :) Bhahahahaha :D

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

p/s : Yeaaa. My teman is a girl laa. She's my roomie utk SS neh. Memperkenalkan, Syira Mijie :))))

Bermaalhijrah di kampung :)

2011-11-29T10:07:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Alhamdulillah, dalam pada musim tak cuti, sempat juga curi masa balik ke kampung halaman tercinta :) Sementelah Isnin cuti sempena Maal Hijrah dan kelas pula tamat pada Khamis, maka Khamis malam jumaat juga saya balik ke Kelantan. Dan, malam ini, yakni Selasa, saya akan bertolak kembali ke tempat bermastatutin sekarang. Esok kelas pukul 2, so no worries la kalau sampai lambat sikit pagi tu pun :) Terima kasih kepada fellow yang sudi memberi keizinan untuk bercuti atas alasan-alasan tertentu, kan? ;)

Balik ni, puas hati amat siyh! Nanti nak balik PJ, nak canang pada orang PJ, that banjir di Kelantan not as bad as being reported in news. Hujan memanglah hujan, tapi takde la sampai banjir teruk-teruk tu. Di kawasan rendah dan berdekatan sungai such as Rantau Panjang yang memang berjiran dengan Thailand namun hanya dipisahkan oleh Sungai Golok, memanglah tak dapat nak elak banjir tu, kan? Tapi Alhamdulillah dah semakin surut :)

Selain tu, mak masakkan semua menu yang tekak ni menggedik nak makan. Sampai pagi Jumaat di Kelantan, tengah harinya mak dah buat laksa penang, dengan gulai ayam sebagai menu tambahan. Hari Sabtu, mak buat nasi lemak :) Rehat kejap pada Ahad, Isnin pagi semalam mak goreng mee yang dahsyat pada tahap kesedapannya. Malam, mak beli nasi kerabu sebab tak sempat nak buat. Tahu saya belum puas, pagi ni mak beli lagi nasi kerabu. Petang nanti, giliran makaroni bakar pulak. Wah wah wah! Rasa macam balik kampung setahun sekali je, bila mak turutkan segala kemahuan. Syahdu pulak. Auw! haha :D

Di samping tu juga, balik kampung ni, memberi peluang kepada saya untuk jumpa kawan-kawan MMP dulu yang kebanyakannya sedang bercuti dari institusi pengajian masing-masing. Maka jadilah reunion kami ramai-ramai di KB Mall pada Ahad lepas :) Alhamdulillah, thank you ALLAH for the sweet moment :)))

Esok, akan bermulalah kembali rutin yang ditinggalkan. Rabu Khamis kelas, weekend balik rumah abang kakak. Ahad kembali ke PJ. 'Nice' one, kan? =.=' Ohh, I'm gonna to miss Ikmal veryyyyyyyyy much! Iqbal and Irham as well. Omo omo ..

Er, tanak balik PJ boleh? :D

Wish and pray all the best for me, ya!

Er, sebelum terlupa, selamat menyambul tahun baru hijrah 1433 H ye :) Smg tahun ini lebih baik drp sebelumnya, insya ALLAH :)

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

War Crimes Tribunal Tries 2011 @ KL.

2011-11-25T20:40:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

On last 23rd Nov 2011, I attended this trial. I attended the last day, so I just need to listen for the result of the trial. I was fully and safely guarded by my senior, who is my roomie as well. Again, K.Nisa, tengs for the high level of security. Seriously, she never failed to lay her eyes on me every ten seconds :D

We arrived there at the morning, took our breakfast before enjoying the trial. Then, the court rested for lunch as well as for the judges' decision. We have about 4 hours to be burnt till the results was announced.

We took the opportunity to pay our visit to nearby interesting locations such as National Mosque and Islamic Museum. And for sure, we snapped many pics :)

This trial was actually dedicated for those of the victims of the wars that was created by US under the ruling of Tony Blair and George Bush.

A huge appreciation to Kak Nisa' for allowing me to follow her. Actually, this trip opened only for senior students. But since I was free on that Tuesday, so Kak Nisa' bring me along and willingly became my guradian. Tengkieeee :)

Peace no war! ;)

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

Another year counts, unnie :)

2011-11-21T20:06:00.002+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim

You,
Thanks for accepting me into your life.
I know, it's not easy to deal with stranger into your routine,
But thanks for giving me the golden opportunity to be with you.
I know I may not be able to ease your suffer,
But sharing and listening from you is more than enough for me.

Anyhow, thanks for the trust.
Thanks for keeping me believe to stay strong in my days,
Because I know there are more people that are suffering much more than me.

Akak,
Thanks for teaching me the things that my lecturers will never be able to,
Thanks for telling me the reality of life.
Thanks for realizing me that life is not as wonderful as in Korea's dramas.
Thanks for giving me a chance to appear in your life.

Stay strong, sister.
Because ALLAH will never disappoint you.
He will grant and reward you affordable things.
If not now, please stay a step longer.
He still will, at Hereafter.

In short,
Thanks for everything! :)
Just believe that HE will never degraded nice people like you! Insya ALLAH! ;)

Kak LD,

Semoga terus dikurniakan ilham dan idea untuk terus menulis dan berkarya, demi menyalurkan ilmu kepada umat manusia. Saya yakin, akak akan sentiasa sihat dan insya ALLAH, panjang umur serta murah rezki. Amiin.

Regards with heartiest loveS ;) ,
MJ .
(formerly known as Maryam Kamal :D )

***

Credits to :

1) Syahirah's lappy. Kamsammida :)
2)Gambar : FB Lynn Dayana (from the album of Subang Parade's Launching Book)

Happy Anniversary, mummy daddy ! :)

2011-11-19T22:16:00.003+08:00

Bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

Ya ALLAH,

terima kasih kerana mencipta mereka,

terima kasih kerana menjadikan mereka ibu bapa,

untuk meramaikan ummat baginda.

Terima kasih Ya ALLAH,

kerana mengukuhkan ikatan mereka,

kerana meneguhkan cinta mereka,

kerana mengutuhkan kasih sayang kami.

Ya Menciptakan Cinta,

semoga cinta antara mereka,

berkekalan hingga ke syurga.

Amiin.

***

19 November 1979 - 19 November 2011.

32 years of Md Kamal dan Asiah.

Semoga berkekalan hingga ke akhir hayat.

Semoga terus mesra dan bahagia.

Semoga terus saling memahami dan menghormati.

Semoga panjang umur dan disihatkan tubuh badan,

supaya sempat jasamu dibalas ;)

Selamat menyambut ulangtahun perkahwinan ke-32, mak & ayah :)

***

Terima kasih kerana menjadi ibu bapa yang hebat :)

Terima kasih atas segalanya,

Maaf atas segala salah dan dosa.

***

Ya ALLAH,
terima kasih atas hadiah terhebat sepanjang hayat ini :)

Wallahu'alam,

wassalam.

19 Nov 2011 - A relief day :)

2011-11-19T21:53:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt :)

Tak disangka, tak dijangka, tak diduga. Hujung minggu ni pada mulanya diisikan dengan aktiviti mengulangkaji, rupa-rupanya ada aktiviti sampingan yang menyeronokkan. Menemankan Kak Tie ke perkhemahan anak-anak buahnya ke perkhemahan di Hulu Langat, dan akhirnya sempat menikmati keindahan alam. Terima kasih, ALLAH :)

Dear Kak Tie and Abang Naim,

Terima kasih untuk hari yang melegakan ini. Terima kasih banyak-banyak :)

Hip hip hooray! Malam ni tido awal, esok bangun awal ye. STUDY :) Mid sem lusa *cuakkkk =.='

All the best for me, then :)

Wallahu'alam, wassalam.

p/s : Misi mencari Seksyen 7 berjaya! Terima kasih sekali lagi, abang kakak :))))

Salam perantauan :'(

2011-11-18T22:14:00.000+08:00

Assalamualaikum wbt.

Kami dua beradik, ingin menyampaikan salam perantauan kepada mak dan ayah di Pasir Mas, Kelantan. Tak lupa kepada abang sulung, Abang Mat sekeluarga ~ Kak Nori, Iqbaizura, Ikmaisarah dan Irham. Juga kepada Markonah Montelo Markuso, ibu angkat Ikmai dengan ucapan,

"Ingat-ingatlah kami di sini. Setimbun 'mmmmmmmmmmmmmmuahhhh' untuk Ikmai ;) "

Dari Maryam Jamilah Jhelita dan Muja Mujahadah dari Bandar Baru Bangi, Selangor Darul Ehsan, Malaysia >.<

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Baru lepas Skype dengan orang kampung. Perghhh. Langsung takde mood nak mid sem =.='

Wallahu'alam.